1st BALUKU!!!

Today kx kena her first baluku, it's reali my fault for not taking good care of her. I feel so guilty and remorseful. Why did i let it happen!! I thot i can take good care of her without her suffering any injuries but i was wrong and im so upset about it :( :( :(

I reali pray that her swell will go down soon, if not everytime when i look at the bump, the guilty feeling will creep back to me and i feel that i have not done my duty as a mother. Haiz...what a day....

As if the baluku is not bad enough, later in the evening she giap her finger while playing with the FP toy. She cried so loud leh and kept looking at the toy and cry, as if she know that the toy bullied her. My darling very poor thing hor, have to suffer 2 injuries in a day. I rather the injuries are inflicted on me rather than her and im most willing to take the pain on her behalf. She's so little and it reali breaks my heart to see the bump on her small round head.

I think i must reali sayang her more and shower her with more of my love, hugs and kisses to make up for the suffering and pain she has to go through...